Monday, February 20, 2006

I just finished skimming through a xanga site remembering a counsellor that has recently passed away. I don't know him, but from reading the posts that people in his life have left, the seeds he has planted are fruitful.

That takes me to look in retrospect to what I have accomplished the last 17 years. Ungrateful, never satisfied, bitter, jealousy, envious, aimlessness, and sad is what I would write down. Just pathetic. Nothing to truly mesmerize, and nothing to be remembered by. I really feel compelled to take action for once. Take the first step, initiate a change that would forever alter my life, perhaps the lives of others around me.

Can I really help build something that will last eternally? Where do I begin? What do i do?

kiwi at 7:53 PM (4) comments

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Friday, February 03, 2006

I'm sorry I'm not mature.
I'm sorry I'm not smart.
I'm sorry I'm not respectful.
I'm sorry I'm not loving.
I'm sorry I'm not patient.
I'm sorry I'm not mindful.
I'm sorry I'm not strong.
I'm sorry I'm not trustworthy.
I'm sorry I'm not obedient.
I'm sorry I'm not content.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.

I'm sorry I'm not all that you want me to be.
I'm sorry I'm me.

kiwi at 9:54 PM (6) comments

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

I knew it.

Everything will come back and bite you in the ass.

kiwi at 4:19 PM (5) comments

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

yay! finalli bak at church =) praise da Lord!

kiwi at 10:46 PM (19) comments

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